Queer Kid of Color

So two Sundays ago I broke it off with that guy I told you all about. Three days later he found someone else, and now they’re in a relationship. My feelings for wanting to be in a relationship with him are gone, what I’m upset and confused about is the fact that he got over me so quickly. Then, he still wants to be my friend. I’m all for friendship, but he expects me to pick up everytime he calls. And that doesn’t rock with me. I pick up when I feel and lately I do not feel that need. He’s getting the clue now though, because he hasn’t been calling or texting as often.

Now, I’m not one to pry but I had to investigate this new relationship. I uncovered some nasty tracks too! They’re both in rebound relationships. And they both claim, according to their myspace comments, that they’re in love. What the hell? We were together 6 weeks! And you’re love with dude you was only with for three days? What the hell? I just hope that guy can provide as much comfort in him as I have, because I know I treated him good. He too treated me well. That’s why as much as I want to I can’t call him nasty names or speak terribly about him. I broke it off with him two times before the last. Both times he took me back. The third break up was the definite last.

I’ll call him when I’m ready. It make take a few days, perhaps a few weeks, perhaps a few months, I’m not going to call someone who’s feelings for me melted as fast as they came {no pun intended}.  I still have this feeling though that he still belongs in my life, like his part of my life story isn’t over.