Queer Kid of Color

I think I’m in love. How convinent.

I dont care what anybody says; there’s nothing better than thanksgiving leftovers. I’m eating the leftovers as we speak.

I had a great time yesterday. I thought I was going to my aunt’s house to eat there, but my mom just so happened to cook here and invited some of her friends over. It was great.

I been spending some of my weeks writing a project that I’m really passionate about. It’s an untitled drama about the lives of African American women-whatever you think the show is about, you can forget about it-its not what you’re thinking. This show is original in its content. Trust. I selected two writers already. I’m having a hard time deciding who’s going to co-write the first episode with me. Whoever I do not choose to pen the first episode with yours truly would write the second episode. And yes I am compensating them. They’re totally worth the expenses. I wrote the story behind these women already. But before I begin to pen the actual script, I want my friends to look over the television treatment and tell me what they think. I’m not going to post it here-I dont know who’s out here trying to steal my stuff. No shade.

There’s no such. What’s gay about rights? Name me 1 gay right…it’s ok…I’ll wait…5…4..3..2…1. There is no such thing as a GAY right. All rights apply to everyone in the world. It’s called Civil Rights. Do we all have it? No. Why? Because we’re too busy trying to get the gay community recognition. The term is CIVIL RIGHTS FOR HOMOSEXUALS. Not GAY rights. So stop freaking saying it.

You know what? I’m getting a little annoyed right now. Lets face reality. The Bible says homosexuality is a sin. It says it 6 times. So lets stop bitching about what its suppose to say. The reality of it is that it say it’s a sin. I don’t care about interpretations. I could care less about what the original meaning or the origin of the word homosexual comes from. The chasm of the moment is that it says it NOW. And the less time we spend trying to educate and interpret a meaning we know nothing about-the less confusing homosexuality is to the straights. This is my argument; the media misinterprets facts and news everyday, could you imagine a book that’s been around for 2,000 years how many rewrites, sources, ignorant people its been through? A LOT. So get over it; it is what it is. It says it’s a SIN. That’s it. It may not be true but the fact of the matter is that its printed!

It’s early morning and I’m up finishing the tweaks on two articles to be out in Clik Magazine in December. I’m up a little angry at myself because I’m handing in work late and its making me look bad. Aside from that, my writing has become sloppy. Writer’s block-something I thought I would never catch-I ended up catching. I can’t pick up a pen to outline a book, I can’t type words on my keyboard to write a script. It’s all becoming too much for me, just too much. Next week is the Clik Honors and I don’t think I’ll even be attending.

Yesterday, I had a great meeting with the Executive Producer of Christopher Street the series, our Line Producer, and the show’s Manager. It was a great meeting and it got me excited about the project. That meeting validated what I love to do. I hope I don’t fail them-the youth of color, who need to see this.

I’m getting a little pissed that my fellow blogger Marz hasn’t posted up anything for days now!

Yesterday I found out my friend-someone who I care for dearly-is at the point where he’s almost getting evicted. I was ranting on about Christopher Street the series, while he had depression in his voice, trying to follow what I’m saying.

I’m becoming a little annoyed now. I want to write a book. But it’s like I said I can’t pick up a pen to write.

I’m reading a book by my dear friend Trent Jackson entitled “At This Moment”. It’s so fucking good. I have two friends who have written book. That makes me feel good. I want someone to say ‘my friend is an author’. Shit. I’ll come up with some form of inspiration.

The quality isn’t well. lol It was bootlegged video taped. But check out the film I’m producing “Welcome To Rainbow’s End”

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Last night I was asked the question what types of guys are you into? In which I replied swiftly, “anyone as long as they’re fem.” In which the person then replied, “you might as well date a girl.”

I just notice a pattern here, every time I write a blog its because someone prompt me to write it. But that’s beside the point.

Why are people always referring to fems as females? I like me a fem. I’ll date females if they have a penis and no chest, know any of those? I’m sick of these stereotypes masculine men can only be tops, fems can only be bottoms. I know masculine bottoms! Ha! I know a lot of those. People get all warped up when I say I like fems. Who gives a shit if I like the effeminate. That makes them just that sexy. Any guy who can strut themselves down the street and get attention then that’s a real diva and HE has a chance with me- according to my playbook.

Feminine boys are beautiful. So power to them all.

First of all let me begin now by apologizing to the queer youth of color with an agenda and who have politics. Sorry Trent, sorry Fuzzy, sorry Marz, Afrodyke, and everyone else who [according to my 'star status'] I represent. This is no way for a Clik Honoree to be acting. But I can’t believe I have ‘under developed philosophies’

In case you missed Mr. Cheyenne comment that he left me yesterday-by the way I love your music-I’ll repost the comment now. And I shall break it down as such.

From your first dissenter:
No hate at all. I am a teenaged queer kid of color with politics, and you are a teenaged queer kid of color with politics, and the fact that I disagree with yours doesn’t even have to be negative; I think it’s hot that there is a noticed voice of a queer person of color our age, and I also think you have heart, but the things you say make me cringe, and I don’t consider it hating to vocalize that. Your word choices in your response to me seem to turn it into an unnecessary dramafest when I had no intention of it going down that way. If you want to talk to me about it, I’m all about conversation, and you know where to find me.

I love his comment to me, I really do. And its appreciated. But he initiated the ‘drama fest’. How would you feel if you’re trying to create change and there’s someone hating on you because his politics isn’t bringing visiblity to the community. When I post the fact that I’m on people’s websites and I’m in publications it isn’t to brag, its to let people know, your voice isn’t being heard, but that’s ok I’m a queer teenager of color and mines is so please do not discourage.

But since Mr. Cheyenne doesn’t agree with my commentary and he hasn’t checked out my other site, you know the one who which isn’t as personal as this one, he wants to go ahead and post things about me on other websites-which is very demeaning . I’ll admit I was hurt by his comment, and took the easy route out and laughed about it. I dont understand how someone would just go about saying such things instead of confronting me about it. And then he refers to me as white. Are you kidding me?

And I’m creating a dramafest about it? If you dont like my site, then dont get on it.
“his social commentary does not go deeper than ‘Can men be bisexual?’ or ‘Let’s not make people lazy’ in reference to welfare programs, yet he’s star status in qpoc communities for it.”

GET OVER YOURSELF.

This isn’t social commentary, its me expressing opinion. My blog is boring? Obviously its not if I average close to 92 percent returning visits A DAY.

I cant believe I’m even blogging about this. This is beyond me.

Anyways, I’m so over it. If anyone has a myspace email me queerkidofcolor@yahoo.com So I can add you.

Peace out.

Look what I found! At least I have readers! I have over 400 visitors a day and I feel I’m unimportant.

My first negative person and I found it online. I’m so happy. Nevermind the fact that I’m producing projects for gay people of color or the fact that I’m an advocate and an activist and I’m 18 years old with a goal. My blog is hated on!

By the way: QPOC means queer people of color enjoy!

What is up with this queerkidofcolor.blogspot.com? I take issue with it for several reasons…

His blog is really not more interesting than anybody else on the planet’s boring blog; his social commentary does not go deeper than ‘Can men be bisexual?’ or ‘Let’s not make people lazy’ in reference to welfare programs, yet he’s star status in qpoc communities for it. He’s a “conservative Democrat”, and I understand his being tokenized by white gay liberals (eg The Advocate) whose agenda goes in line with his underdeveloped, confused philosophies, but when people like Keith Boykin and other queer people of color who are otherwise on point about things act like he is THE FACE of queer youth of color it just doesn’t compute for me. Is it just because he is there, while other queer youth of color, who have actual progressive politics and are actively about real qpoc issues are rarer and invisible?